Observe the attachment to your pain.Be very alert. Observe the peculiar pleasure you derive from being unhappy. Observe the compulsion to talk or think about it. The resistance will cease if you make it conscious.

   You can then take your attention into the pain-body, stay present as the witness, and so initiate its transmutation. Only you can do this. Nobody can do it for you.

   The first thing to remember is that: As long as you make an identity for yourself out of the pain, you cannot become free of it. As long as part of your sense of self is invested in your emotional pain, you will unconsciously resist or sabotage every attempt that you make to heal that pain.

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compulsion  n.  （被）強迫，（被）強制[U][+to-v]；強制力，強迫力[U]

transmutation  n. 變形；變質；變化；【生】演變

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sabotage   V. n.    破壞；妨害

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