My heart melted in STP
My name is Sophia. I am from Hong Kong. I have practiced meditation in Sahaj Marg for 3 years and just became a preceptor in Oct 2008. Two years ago, it was the first time I heard about Scholarship Training Program (STP) from a sister in Shanghai. She mentioned that the experience gained from it was invaluable. I expected I would be able to join it one day.
Two months prior to the commencement of STP 08-09, I was informed thatmy application was successful. The happiness was undescribable. I have several questions that I wished to find the answers in the four weeks of STP. What happened between God and the human beings at the first place? Why do we need God? What is the relationship between God and Master? And, HOW CAN I LOVE MASTER MORE?
Whenever I read the literature such as My Master,
Our Master, Combined Work of Chariji, Vol. 3, Letter from Master, etc.,
I was so moved and impressed by the great love and deep relationship
between Lalaji and Babuji, Babuji and Chariji, Chariji and his
disciples.
I love Master as if I love my family, my friends, sisters and brothers in Sahaj Marg. In comparing to other abhyasis, I knew my love to HIM was not enough. However, I understood that there would be a crucial moment coming soon to awaken me. What I needed to do was to be patient and to keep looking at HIM.
That moment had come on the second week. It was the third day in Malampuzha Retreat Centre. When
all the scholars felt amazed by the natural environment, the wonderful
arrangement by the coordinators and the good facilities, food &
beverage provided by the center, the centre-in-charge told us that
Master had this idea to build a retreat centre 20 years ago. My heart was instantly connected to this : What really happens is that Master "prepares the field," as he puts it, by continued work of a spiritual nature. (Transmission,
SMES", chapter "What Transmission Is", pg 103 -by Chariji) I then
looked at the clear sky, the unlimited mountains, the newly implant
trees and flowers inside the Centre, each wood & brick. Finally I stopped my glance at the scholars. My heart started to melt.
A sudden rush of feeling came to my heart. What Master did is more than we could notice, more than we could understand. At
the beginning, we always complained the uncomfortable bed, no private
room, snoring roommate, no hot water for bath, no toilet paper, dirty
and wet floor, unlimited mosquito bites, limited choice of food, etc. We tried to bring the standard at home to Sahaj Marg.
"If
I can perfect myself in such a way that I can use anything in this
universe, and make something of it, all things are useful to me. Not to me, they are useful, per se, you see. For such a person, the universe is full of useful things."
P.2 Acceptance, Salient features of Sahaj Marg VI
Simple bed enables us not to stay late in the bed. A common room helps us develop the brotherhood and harmony. No hot water for bath prevents us from wasting water. No toilet paper teaches us to cherish the use. Dirty and wet floor stimulate us to help do volunteer work. Unlimited mosquito bites tell us to live with the Nature. Choice of food is limited but enough for the body. As Master said, Nature cannot be wasted. We should bring Sahaj Marg back home.
The love of Master is from everywhere, through everyone we meet and everything we encounter. Before STP, Br. Alberto provided guidelines and answered our questions as detailed as he could. On
9 December, he even sent us an email which mentioned that he stayed
overnight at a hotel in Bombay on the second week after the terrorism
attack. He
and his wife felt quite safe during the whole travel, the arrival in
the Bombay and Chennai airports, the hotel accommodation and the
transfers by car. The security measures had been strengthened everywhere. And the last sentence in bold : Please tell your families NOT to be concerned about your travel to India very soon. On the other hand, Brother Martin drove us to and from the airport several times in a day, even midnight. Brother Lenin took care of our luggages and car rentalwhereas Sister Irina always reminded us the safety of the personal belongings in the sister dormitory. Brother Razvan gave us a tour in the Ashram. All
working committee members and coordinators were still in a meeting to
evaluate and made betterment to the program when our scholars were
taking rest. Volunteers
followed us to Malampuzha and back to Chennai for only one purpose –
cooked and prepared everything to make us feel like home. Such similar circumstance could not count. I believed there was one huge motivation behind them. They all love Master. "Love HIM who loves all." With such a selfless heart, how can't I love my Master? I want to become like HIM.
Before STP, I remembered my astrology was Sagittarius. My horoscope was Rat. I was type 2 and 7 in Enneagram. I was jealous, emotional, a bit pessimistic and lack of patience. Now, I forget who I am and just look at myMaster, learn from his thinking and behavior, and make myself become like HIM.
"A Master must make others like himself……A mother creates children, not monsters. We become monsters subsequently." (Salient Features of Sahaj Marg, Acceptance, P.9)
"To
judge the real worth of the guide, we must associate with him for some
time trying and testing him by all means in our power. When
we are thus convinced of his capabilities through reason and experience
we may accept him as our Master and submit to his guidance." (Reality
at Dawn, Page 67)
The
very first thing to be looked to, seriously, is that the path we select
is the right one, leading directly to our goal……When we are, finally
convinced of the merits of the thing we may stick to it with faith and
constancy. (Reality at Dawn, Page 65)
Through this Scholar Training Program, have I finally got the answer to my original questions? Yes, I got more than I wanted. Thank you, Master!
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