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This is my part for a book: Divine Spark
Quest for truth – My Journey
I was born in a family where science and fact rules. Dad was an engineer, the war made him picked up arm to protect our country, Army Engineer allowed him to manage both his profession and his duty. Mom was a schoolteacher. They were disappointed at so many lies occupied this world. They gave me a name that means respect truth and exercise honesty.
At age of five, it was the first day back to kindergarten from new year holiday. The teacher called me up to answer “What day it is”. I mumbled “Decem…” realizing the year turned, “January 6”. The teacher asked classmate “What day it is?” The classmates called out loud: “November”. As the teacher corrected the class, my mind wondered off. She quickly wrapped up and we got a 15 minutes break. We had the choice of sleep, nap or just close our eyes and be quiet. My heart quickly examined all the facts I knew then: Dad and Mom gave birth to me. School, relatives, universe … etc. Everything seems to fall into place, except one big question: “Who am I? Why am I here?” That’s the missing link to all.
Age ten, also in new year. I had raised enough allowance to purchase this beautiful canon for myself. It is prettier and bigger than my friend’s. I bought big firecrackers and fired the canon. To my dismay, the toy is more a decoration then what I used it for. Out of desperation, the knowledge of God of all kind came to mind. I did the first payer in my life: “Dear God, please help me find my missing piece on my toy. I will believe you and follow you all my life. But, please, also tell me who you are!” Chinese community respects all religion hence I knew there were many of them. After the prayer, I set out to look for my toy. Found it five houses down in a trench. But God never gave me his name.
Those two questions followed me all my life – into my forties when I became a middle age man with a family, kids and relatively nice living. I have entered churches, temples and read bible and many sutras. My parents raised me with all their love by not tying me to any restrain and the society gave me everything. I am a liberal with no limitation in my mind. Never I found answer to those two questions.
Some friends invited me to practice Tai-Chi and Chi. I made good progress. My heart even adjusted my body in couple of the practices at home. This was a shock to my mind.
After Dad died, a friend showed me the world of Buddha. I learned much more and get deeper into their theory. I really enjoyed couple of books. I respect the knowledge in the books. Was most touched by one of them who lives in hell and claim: “I will not become Buddha until this place is empty”; However, I did not become a Buddhist.
As the world become flat. My world in USA is affected, too. My job was lost because the company wants to move its funding to India for more man power. During the three-year struggle in vain to keep the job. I encountered health problem. Chinese Chi practice helped me address that. I demonstrated exceptional calm toward everything the management threw at me to oust me.
During this time, I met brother Wan-Ting. We met in the subway, only talked twice. He demonstrated what he benefited from Buddha sutras. And most important of all: we found that we have the common goal: the truth of life. He also told me that he found an Indian mission, which promises the most efficient path. He was to give it a try.
Job was finally lost. I decided to open my own business – following my heart. I was struggling to run this humble small business. Around Chinese New Year, Feb 2007. I got a call from sister Jade. She gave me Wan-Ting’s number. The night before in my daily meditation, I felt a new force pulling in the center of my chest. Didn’t know what it was then. But now I know: master found me when she talked to Wan-Ting.
Brother Wan-Ting wasted no time to get me started. Every Saturday, going to his house for a sitting is the high light of my week.
October 2007, brother Nadeem asked me to go see master in Dubai.
That was a beautiful autumn morning when I met master. I followed Wan-Ting to get up and close to ask master my lifetime question: “Who am I and why am I here?”
Master’s answer was simple and straight: “You are who you are. You are where your heart is!” I sat there like sitting in Grandpa’s lap. It always felt that way. In Dubai, in China, every time I see master.
Before the trip, Master started my 17-year-old daughter himself. I was given the precious gift of becoming a preceptor. First thing I did after I went home, was to start my other daughter.
Sahaj Marg gives more meaning to my busy life. I show up for activities less often than most. But I enjoy every moment I get to go to Ashram or any meetings.
September 2008, I went to China to observe master bringing his love to China. This was the best trip of my life. Master’s love quickly spread to Chinese brothers and sisters.
One night, brother asked me to translate master’s speech to Chinese because some of the abhyasi weren’t able to comprehend English. As I translate the speech which is filled with love and humanity, tear came down my eyes.
My friends in Shanghai were calling me to meet me. They also suggested me to do business there, too. I told them that I will be back; however, I will be back for spreading master’s love to Chinese. This is the most important thing I will do with my life.
Thank sister Claire. This article is a wonderful way for me to reflect what happened when I met master and what it did for me.
December 28, 2008. I came out of morning meditation with a sharp pain in my chest and back. Master’s transmission stayed on with me. I can feel it is his push of love to prepare for his USA trip in Feb. So is the previous birthday celebrations or the China trip. Just that it is much more powerful. After two days, the transmission and cleaning force is still there. I am more stabilized. But I know. He is cleaning me. Not just me: the whole land of freedom. This is where most of the problem today’s world came from. He is coming to clean our soul to prepare us for what’s coming up.
I found the answer for my first questions. After studying and communicating with other brothers and sisters, I know this is the place I can get to realization sooner than any other place which answer my second question. I am not there, yet; however, I know I am in good hands. Look forward to find and verify the truth of the life.
That’s all I want for my life. I might want to share it with fellow human once I get there.
Thank master and thank to the mission. I see the light from the end of the tunnel.
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